My Why
If you don’t have a purpose, you won’t be able to sustain a drive and willingness to move forward. If there is no core conviction, you won’t be able keep up motivation. There’s base line reasons why, such as living, making an income, having a family. But those are very broad and generic. Mainstream America very much so gets caught up in mundane lifestyles because they haven’t found a true why and are more or less following the motions. This was me prior to meeting my husband. I dabbled in college but didn’t really know what I wanted to do so I left instead of wasting a bunch of time and money and I started working to figure it out. Found a career I would like and do enjoy and wanted to get married and have a family but didn’t really think about it much more than that. So i got married and started a family and kind of felt trapped. I didn’t seem to have much of a life or purpose outside of that and it started to feel kind of dark. We moved to our homestead when my oldest was just 4 months old and although things started to feel in place, I still didn’t feel I found my true purpose, my true “get up and go” but I just kept “doing”
In 2020 the pandemic hit, the first of my adult life. Now I don’t want to go down this rabbit hole too much but essentially it “woke me up”. No matter how you feel about it, there were places you couldn’t go, things you couldn’t do that you normally did and supply chains became an issue. Living through this, with a husband, 2 children and a 3rd on the way, you didn’t have a choice but make some decisions and decide how this was going to affect you.
I decided to dig my head into some history books, factual websites and my bible and I came out a completely different person in the matter of a few months. I still had my same life but I now had my core convictions and my true “why” in life.
The “things” suddenly didn’t matter, what people thought of me was their problem, not mine and I truly understood that I and I alone was going to truly be the only one who cared about my families well being. We dove down the paths of what’s in our food, why are certain illness more prevalent and uprising and what’s causing that? Is the medical field really solving more problems than it’s creating and where do we draw the societal lines?
I know that these can be hot button topics and I truly respect all opinions (as long as that’s a mutual understating) My goal is not to make you think like me but to leave a seat at the table for discussion. I went through a good period of time after these realizations that I was angry. I had felt so deceived by so many people I thought I could trust and that I thought had cared about me. I felt betrayed. But luckily, I could do something about it. I still had my very supportive husband, our 3 beautiful boys and a living wage.
So, below, with an open mind are some of the paths I traveled down. Take nothing for fact and never stop asking questions. These resources are merely being shared to look at things from a different view point, if you haven’t already.